getGoing...!!

How I was feeling horrible and decided to take a break I wish I had something to write about, I really do. The reason I have nothing to write about is because life has been pretty much a routine lately. And then smthng too unusual is going on. I come in for work, I do whatever till about 6-6:30 PM, and then I go back home, I eat, read, watch some stupid stuff on tee vee and then go off to sleep. All weekdays follow this pattern. Weekends afford some diversion, which is why I usually end up writing something after a weekend in my diary which is almost lost these days. I've lost my diary & my Pen **sob sob** All this routine and a combination of some other things ended up leaving me quite unsettled, unhappy yesterday. So I'll take off from work early, go home & vll relax down...so that am in a much better frame of mind tomorrow.

And I came across this today :). Had BG cared to speak to me yesterday, I might've come up with an answer along the same lines.

What I Told BG When He Asked How I Was Feeling Today

Grumbly, grouchy,
crabby, grumpy,
sleepy, slouchy,
fussy, frumpy,
whiny, weary,
cranky, crazy,
dingy, dreary,
languid, lazy,
dizzy, drowsy,
cruddy, crummy,
loony, lousy,
scruffy, scummy,
bleary, batty
scraggly, sketchy,
rusty, ratty,
testy, techy.
That describes it,
BG.
Thank you for the
new thesaurus.

--Kenn Nesbitt

I really missed VK & PK today. Kahan ho yaar tum dono?

Saturde, Sunde, Monde....

"Jack fell down and broke his crown, Jill kept tumbling after". (:Jack=>"Saturday", :Jill=>"Sunday")
Weekend relaxation is proving to be more folklore than fact. It just comes & passes by..half of the time i never get to feel even :-(.. **grrr****) Wat i did?? saw around 3-4 movies & enjoyed "Harivansh Rai Bacchan's Madhushala" & wats this?? read nothing..just 10 pages of my current novel "God Of Small Things"
Monde..uuuhhhh wat was the day??ask VK & PK..jaan atki padi thi.
Newys days ahead are goin to be more worse i guess... & smthng too unusual s goin on in my life these days..it seems as if i m goin to end my life soon.. :-(

Criticism..takes me into deep oceans.

why do ppl have to criticize each and everything they see?why do ppl pretend to care when they really dont?why are ppl suckers for sympathy?why the fuck are ppl so damn frustrated.....plz stop....its rubbing off on me too now.why the hell would someone pretend to care for u? its nice and all under normal circumstances....they say stuff like "im always there for you. u can approach me anytime if anything is bothering you." and you get all happy and think of that person as a good friend and as someone who cares. but let the time come when things get screwed up and u approach them.....and they turn their backs on u.i hate this.....dont wanna get to know anyone if everyone is like this. Its not just others do so, infact ur near & dear ones also do, not only smtimes but always, Shitty is the word vch is entering into my mind. No one is perfect here on this battlefield earth, then y do ppl only remember ur mistakes, ur wrong attempts - just to criticize u each & every moment. Y not ur good deeds r remembered & appreciated?? A healthy criticism is always good & liked but what is this.. it seems ppl r just here to sit & critize hell lot of things as if they dont have any other work to do in their life & they r the perfect most. I m really fed up of all this & just dunno want to meet anyone ..anyone means anyone bcz what they can do is just criticize... **anger**

Chookar mere mann ko...

Yeah, this is the first song on guitar played by me 2de. I really loved it & was so haapy tht i cud paly the first two lines of this song ... not perfectly but a bit of it. This song took me to the campus of DU where Aamir Khan sings "Su kar mere mann ko...." (Rang De Basanti) . This was really a wonderful movie..Simply superb..leaving everyone speechless. & this sunde i m gonna go for it once again (3rd time) wid my friends.

Monde i met my childhood fren H, say almost after 2 yrs both of us really had a gala time in same old style. wahi leg pulling, petty sweet fyts, sm masala gossips... & both of us really did miss all the fun & were waiting for sm de to cm when v can again have tht masti..Finally monde was the de when both of us caught hold of each other & had fun.

& yeah a dear fren of mine finally made it happen & now frm 2moro will join Yantra. Congs ma'am, waiting for a big big treat...

grrrr... work , work, & work... U all have fun !!

Another Weekend...

Hi folks, so how was the weekend at ur end? Mine was simly superB really really enjoyed a lot as my cousin was there wid her sweet little daughter from Rawatbhatta.
Saturde had lots of masti though wasnt well, evening went to market for all the decided shopping. & Paani pataashe..how could we miss it? "Shilpu maassi paani pataashe khaane hai chalo Na.. Ikeem bhi khaana hai" Dhwani is really sweet & have started talking so much & so sweetly. jus ask her to sing ne Himesh Reshmaiya's song & she'll definitely leave u rolling down on ground laughing. reached home by 10.30pm , poora market ke doors & shutters band karwakar aaye the ** winking** then had our dinner by 11.30 pm & then lovely D started in her full mood pretty dances & all her pre nursery rhymes.."jhonny jhonny yes papa" Somehow we managed to make her sleep by 2.30 am & then the lights were switched off.
Sunde.. hona hi tha none of us got up b4 10.30 am except MUM as usual. Went to have D's hair cut..(Mushroom baba..full style mein rehti hai ) Wow..YUMMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmm............. had delicious Daal pakwaan for the lunch, u r gr8 mum.thnx a lot!! Sorry PK i cudnt courier it to u there at b'lre.. So just plan out ur kota trip soon to have them. i really missed PK, AG & K as they simply love the dish. "Shilpu maassi kaboo dekhna hai...chalo" Now wat is kabboo? Kabboos are pigeons..so around 5.30 we went to kota barrage & really had a gala time there..played wid say around 200 kabboos at a time, & see how fearless she is..not at all scared played wid the dirty horrible looking street DOGgie.. "kabboo ud ja doggie kha jaayega" How sweet she is. I love u sweetheart, muaaaahhhhhh...
Finally she left for rawatbhatta around 10.00pm leaving us all tht masti behind..& again as usual, sdaily routine i m back to my office, work work & work.. ** sob sob**
Hey how can i forget thanking my Boss who got so many chocos for me on saturde from AMSTERDAM !!

RANG BARSE Bheege Chunar....

HOLI HAI !!
May Red bring Luv & passion, Yellow bring joy & fun, Orange bring vigour & viatality & Green bring health & prosperity in your life this year.
The festival of colors was there again wid its uproar & gaiety, and ppl of all ages were ready to plunge in wid wild abandon as if they were 10 again. I really had loads of fun this time & still my body is aching badly. oohh ahhh.... Such a terrific holi i had this time & tht too when i dint expect much masti. It was really Fun. K simply did the trick & i guess not a single part was spared by him...i was in red, blue, green frm top to bottom, outside to inside..totally in color & mud YUCKS... & when the kapde faado session started every1 enjoyed it to the fullest..Of'crs we gals were not the part of it..except in tearing the cloths of all the guys.. AS shirt turned into a designer BACKLESS top, ;-) how **** he was looking with a shy on his face. & wid all this v danced a lot on DHOLAK which Neeru aunty had got it frm her home. all the Aunts really made us dance & sing to the fullest at the Dholak & their claps.
Its said tht the best way of finding out if you've played Holi well is by looking at yourself in the mirror at the end of the day, if you cant recognize urself , well done!! & exactly was the case wid me & tht too in the middle of the game only it happened tht S uncle dint recognize me by my face but thru was voice..GR8 , i really played well HOLi isnt it fellas?? by 5.00 pm smhow i made it to my bed as was so tired so tired tht just vshed to go for a long stretched sleep..but poor me cud go for it for sm sm or the silly reasons :-( stil i m in color.. no need of garnier/ l'oreal hair color to give different look .. they r so well colored & tht too wid the latest & in new style. Smhow by using the paste prepared by my MUm in the evening i was able to get sm color out frm my body & face. atleast i managed to cm to my office 2de otherwise wud've had to stay back.
The way Sids , K & all his frenz made NM out of his house was amazing. it was really a matter of pride to think up of tht kinda innovative & dangerous way tobait tht non- enthusiast out of his house & then wet him.
As per the ritual to be followed - thandaai wid sm bhaag in it, sm guys had it but i missed it.. :-( i really missed it.
& even on 14th i really njoyed a lot..had nice HOLI celeb at the office campus. Thanks BOSS!!
Now the week ahead is really gonna be a tiring one. some guest r planned to cm on 18th & i have to get out all of my color before tht. Its MUM's order..& no way to escape frm it.
till then
cheers.. :-))

Who Stole The Handle ??

Ummm y m I saying so? … RJ took me back to my school days, my playground, tamarind trees, cycle stand, the hovering eagles, standing & waiting for the school bus, petty jealousies, smart school uniform – mumma 2-4 inch abve the knees, sweet rhtymic game riddles – oranges & the lemon so for a penny; ringa ringa roses,etc.., teeny weeny girlish crushes – Tom Cruise;Shahid Afridi… , stupid mimicries , celebrations – Sophian’s Day …. Aahhh.. how the time passes away no one knows, but , but it leaves behind the sweetest of sweetest memories..The Unforgetable ones , how insignificant those days seemed to be & see how the time has changed it… Now they r the most significant ones !! I miss u dear Sophia, I really Miss U L L L
So, who stole the handle… reminded me one of my childhood games, “Who stole the cookies from the cookies Jar? ” Wow, we’ve all played this game so much, I can feel the colourful memories, no doubt they r all preserved as a fossil forever .. . Y it all clicked ? just bcz RJ’s signature at his gmail carried “who stole the handle?” Thnx RJ for tkng me to my sweet old days once again.

Its raining, Men!!
Hallejulah
It's raining menAmen
Humidity is’nt rising
Barometer's getting low
According to our sources
The street's the place to go
It's raining men
Hallejulah
t's raining men

Yayyy, since last two days the weather here has been sooo gooood tht i just can’t imagine. Oops “oole” waali baarish, Muuuuaaaah! I still remember the rains at jodhpur , my Nanima’s place & we all cousins , mama, massi njoying like anything, hitting each other with them. I miss it now…. We used to collect “oole” for our nimbu paani, chaach – have u guys ever had ollas in your life. If not then just don’t miss them fellas…they r really very tasty!
& wat? I am not able to work at all… (not, that I work a lot). The rains seems to be so beautiful from my office window. I m just loving it. Day before yesterde I had paani pataashe, papri chat, chole tikki & finally to compliment with a “RumPunch” at BR31. it made me sing all the way round…

There's a boy in my mind and he knows
I am thinking of him
all my way through the day and the night
stars shine above me
he's been gone for sum time
but i know i truley love him
and I am singing a song
hoping he'll be back
when he hears it
my heart goes shalalala shalala in the morning
shalalala shalala in the sunshine
shalalala shalala in the evening
shalalala shalala just for you!

Yesterday again it rained heavily with all those ollas…but poor me sucked by the office work. L sob ** sob*** L really wished to just get out & enjoy in the lovely rains, wished to get drenched completed drenched in it. Then abhi guitar classes ka bhi bhoot sawaar hai…So yesterde whole day I was singing…

Neele neele ambar par, chaand jab aaye
pyaar barasaae, hamako tarasaaye
Aisaa koii saathii ho
aisaa koii premii ho
pyaas dil kii bujhaa jaae
Ho, uunche uunche parvat, jab chuumate hai ambar ko
pyaasaa pyaasaa ambar, jab chuumataa hai saagar ko
Pyaar se kasane ko, baahon men basane ko dil meraa lalachaaye, koI to aa jaaye aisaa koI saathii ho aisaa koI premii ho pyaas dil kii bujhaa jaae Neele neele ...

Its just bcz yesterde only I learnt the “C chord”
Enjoy the song fellas…. muuuuuuuaaaaaaaaah!!
and today ..the most beautiful scene i'd ever seen... on the way to my office i saw the smoke on the water of chambal river. Gosh, it was simply amazing... Vsh i was there in the middle of the river in between the smoke..!! i really wish this to happen in my life atleast once..God Bless Me!!

8th March..Women's DAY

Be proud to be a WOMAN!!!











Say No To This.................!!
IS A WOMAN ...

Is a Woman
One who is deprived of the rights in her own house.
Is a Woman
One who is forced to fulfil the obligations without authority.
Is a Woman
One who is away from the shadow of love & affection.
Is a Woman
One who preserves each & every tear of her beloved family members.
is a Woman
Depressed, threatened & sobbing, begging for love and care.
Is a Woman
One who starves herself to make dear ones have bread.
Is a Woman
Always praying for the happiness, success & betterment of the family, inspite of all the agony she faced.
Is a Woman
One who wants to catch, the world in her hands, collect stars & fly high in the sky, to reach the Everest, to flow as a river, to shine in the future.
Is a Woman
Trying to forget pains, fortunes, misries, defeats & beating of the past. IS A WOMAN.

But, feel the essence of woman...

U can feel her innocence in form of daughter, u can feel Her care in form of a sister, u can feel Her warmth in form of a friend, u can feel her passion in form of a beloved, u can feel her dedication in form of a wife, u can feel her divinity in form of a mother, u can feel her blessings in form of a grandmother, yet she is so tough too...,Her heart is so tender..,so naughty...,so charming...,so melodious...,she is a Woman..., She is LIFE!!


The world is celebrating women's day today, i just wanna end my this post with smthng like this.......
Like a wave of the sea, Our life is a journey. But it is our responsibility , To make our life full of beauty.
tomorrow the world will forget tht yesterde they celebrated women's day So will've to work for ourself.. Dont let go down!!

Finally....

The Road Less Travelled .......... M Scott Peck
This book unlike most others, dint work within the boundaries of comforting reality.
"Life is difficult, it is not supposed to be easy."
smtngs so real is always identifiable & hooked me up.. I love challenges & the cacophony of human emotions. Emotion - e- motion - energy in motion....!!! I need to have adventure. Bcz when I finally beat the obstacles I feel the sheer satisfaction of life. The adrenalin rush which i get is very important. The best way to solve difficulties - use intellectual tools.... "widout discipline we can solve nothing. Wid total discipline we can solve all probs."
"the question of responsibility. Some take too much responsibilities & blame themselves for everything - Neurotics. Then there are others who doent assume any responsibility - Character Disorders." I realize that I m a neurotic & therefore I react to it by character disorder.!

So this was the book which i finally finished off wid ysterde night. the third time i read it & grabbed sm real gud fundas for a much better life..!! "kahan tak i'll be able to apply them in my life..."
unusually for me i m finding it extremely difficult to start & finish a book, since last few months i m trying hard to read "god of small things - Arundhati Roy" which i'd purchased long time back say smwhere around august - september. I guess i'll find it interesting enough to read from cover-to-cover & snap out of the general state of limbo i've been in late.

& yay..finally ystrde i went to discuss abt my favorite Guitaar classes.. i guess finally i'l be able to learn it frm scratch & will start playing it soon.. vsh me Gud luc fellas...!!

यह ..दील है हीनदुसतानी

इस चरचा का पूरा षरेय Mr.Kala - the black , को जाता है. उनहोने हि मुझे हिन्दी मे लिखने का आयिdया दिया. just few days back i was online wid him & he simply worte my name in Hindi.. the moment i saw my name in hindi gave me a feeling of being an INDIAN. & i decided to devote a post on hindi...after all its my mother tongue & y shud feel ashamed of talking or converstaing in hindi.
हिन्दी, हमारी raashatra भाषा अur हम उसिमे बात करने से कतराते है... असा कयु??aरे देखो wोह अछि एनगलिष नहि बोल पा रहा है.. अगर आप एनगलिष मेिन अछे से बात नaहि कर सकते तो एक अछि company मे एक अछा job आपके लिये नहि है.
dont u feel as if our national language is changing day by day..frm Hindi to English. let it be any party, social, official meeting, contest nethng.. its only english all thru the road... for instance Miss world/universe Contest - every contestant will come & say a few words in her own national language..mind u not english but wat v indians present there?? not at all INDIA..its westernization of india which is presented there. y dont the female speak in hindi & y there isnt a translator for indians??
Bcz Mr. ABV adrsd in hindi at UNO it was a matter of issue..y?? just bcz he opted for his national language..Ridiculous!
it is supposed tht a baby after his/her birth shud spk Fluent english..Not hindi...English is in & hindi - kicked out?? wat say.. at times it really gets wierd. a matter of pride if ur ward/spouse parents r fluent in english aahhh.. kya kahen??

just look at me, decided to write a complete post in hindi but cudnt do it..Failed, dont evn know how to use a hindi editor properly or might be found it too sick to use..the crux here.. dint vsh to learn to use hindi editor...अरे कया करना कुछ काम तोु आना नहि है.. कया खालि पीली दिमाग लगाो इस मे... how sick isnt it!! finding my language a boring 1 to use & to communicate in..
neways let me be out of this.. .but Thnx Vishal, atleast i tried a bit..waise hogaye hai hum sab pake Hinglistaani!!
Jai Hind!!